Walking my old path.

In between house moving, and trying to clear the rabble from my room I chanced across a small, red note. On it, was a Chinese proverb from Cathy which came from my sugarcube envelope in the office:
‘I dreamed a thousand new paths… I woke and walked my old one.’
I’ve been spending a lot of time reflecting on the last year, I don’t think I could have anticipated anything that has happened. At January Conference in Perth, my biggest concern, and the biggest part of my year (in my mind) was hoping to be selected to go to AP.
Now, its nearly 12 months later, and I’ve had an absolutely crazy year. The thing is, I’ve only realised all this after actually taking the time out to look back. Before now, it’s just been ‘its alright, it’ll blow over, just keep working’. Its only now that I’ve taken an objective view of it all, that I realise that a lot of really major, unexpected things happened. I probably should have quit about half a dozen times and honestly, I’m probably one of the most likely candidates for ‘bitter alumni’.
But over the last few days I’ve been tossing up applying (read: changing my mind hourly) for a few different leadership roles, but in the end I’ve decided to stick with my PBox.
This gives me the chance to step back from the politics, and back into what AIESEC is really about; having an impact. And, right now, I feel that the place I can have the biggest impact is through a project.
The main reason behind this is because over the last two years, all I have done is learn. Learn a lot, in a short space of time. Now, when it comes to the point where I can reflect on what I’ve actually done, it feels like I may have done a lot, but I haven’t accomplished anything. With a project, I can go back to the parts that I skipped (e.g. doing corework) and into a position that I’ll hold for more than a handful of months.
I also have a strong belief that you need to have a fairly solid commitment to a role before applying for it. A few days isn’t enough time (for me at least) to get into the mindset of a different position, and to really be passionate enough to take it on. There’s no way that I’ll step up to a position (a second time) that I’m not fully prepared for.
There’s also quite a few other opportunities which I’m considering coupling with OCP, as well as outside AIESEC. My own sanity being one. Haven’t seen that since State this year. I’m pretty sure I left my party hat in Perth. But I’ve also made a commitment to the ICX guys for 07 which I need to honor, and I’ve not been happy with my activity (read: inactivity) for the external relations and communication strategy from 2006, and I’ll have a lot more flexibility to work in this area. I’ve always had plans on keeping track of our alumni, there’s the possibility of expansion and I’ll still be pushing using experienced older members rather than letting them wander to H4TF.
Anyway, that’s a little insight to my last week. Back to fine- tuning the plan.
Big thanks to Daz and Dan for helping, but mostly not helping me figure this one out.
Mostly a huge thankyou to Kezz, who without a doubt has been my rock this year. After tempting you with candy at recruitment and nudging you to apply for the EB back in April, you’re the one that’s always been there to make me laugh when I need it, but most of all you always remind me what we're here for.
Panda: Thanks for the gerberas, the sugarcubes, 202 procrastination, shopping adventures and the chocolate croissants.
Blonder

As a housewarming present for the residents of the House of Blonder and to celebrate Dan moving in, today I dropped by:
A 15 metre garden hose.
A large funnel.
14 litres of expired goon.
Let the good times roll boys.